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Whether this was a real change of sentiment or only artifice, on a supposition of our being too far engaged in affection to retract, and therefore that we should steal a marriage, which would leave them at liberty to give or withhold what they pleas'd, I know not; but I suspected the latter, resented it, and went no more.Mrs.Godfrey brought me afterward some more favorable accounts of their disposition, and would have drawn me on again; but I declared absolutely my resolution to have nothing more to do with that family.This was resented by the Godfreys;we differ'd, and they removed, leaving me the whole house, and I resolved to take no more inmates.

But this affair having turned my thoughts to marriage, I look'd round me and made overtures of acquaintance in other places; but soon found that, the business of a printer being generally thought a poor one, I was not to expect money with a wife, unless with such a one as I should not otherwise think agreeable.In the mean time, that hard-to-be-governed passion of youth hurried me frequently into intrigues with low women that fell in my way, which were attended with some expense and great inconvenience, besides a continual risque to my health by a distemper which of all things I dreaded, though by great good luck I escaped it.A friendly correspondence as neighbors and old acquaintances had continued between me and Mrs.Read's family, who all had a regard for me from the time of my first lodging in their house.I was often invited there and consulted in their affairs, wherein I sometimes was of service.I piti'd poor Miss Read's unfortunate situation, who was generally dejected, seldom cheerful, and avoided company.I considered my giddiness and inconstancy when in London as in a great degree the cause of her unhappiness, tho' the mother was good enough to think the fault more her own than mine, as she had prevented our marrying before I went thither, and persuaded the other match in my absence.Our mutual affection was revived, but there were now great objections to our union.The match was indeed looked upon as invalid, a preceding wife being said to be living in England; but this could not easily be prov'd, because of the distance; and, tho' there was a report of his death, it was not certain.Then, tho' it should be true, he had left many debts, which his successor might be call'd upon to pay.We ventured, however, over all these difficulties, and I took her to wife, September 1st, 1730.None of the inconveniences happened that we had apprehended, she proved a good and faithful helpmate, assisted me much by attending the shop; we throve together, and have ever mutually endeavored to make each other happy.Thus I corrected that great erratum as well as I could.

About this time, our club meeting, not at a tavern, but in a little room of Mr.Grace's, set apart for that purpose, a proposition was made by me,that, since our books were often referr'd to in our disquisitions upon the queries, it might be convenient to us to have them altogether where we met, that upon occasion they might be consulted; and by thus clubbing our books to a common library, we should, while we lik'd to keep them together, have each of us the advantage of using the books of all the other members, which would be nearly as beneficial as if each owned the whole.It was lik'd and agreed to, and we fill'd one end of the room with such books as we could best spare.The number was not so great as we expected; and tho' they had been of great use, yet some inconveniences occurring for want of due care of them, the collection, after about a year, was separated, and each took his books home againAnd now I set on foot my first project of a public nature, that for a subscription library.I drew up the proposals, got them put into form by our great scrivener, Brockden, and, by the help of my friends in the Junto, procured fifty subscribers of forty shillings each to begin with, and ten shillings a year for fifty years, the term our company was to continue.We afterwards obtain'd a charter, the company being increased to one hundred: this was the mother of all the North American subscription libraries, now so numerous.It is become a great thing itself, and continually increasing.These libraries have improved the general conversation of the Americans, made the common tradesmen and farmers as intelligent as most gentlemen from other countries, and perhaps have contributed in some degree to the stand so generally made throughout the colonies in defense of their privileges.

Memo.Thus far was written with the intention express'd in the beginning and therefore contains several little family anecdotes of no importance to others.What follows was written many years after in compliance with the advice contain'd in these letters, and accordingly intended for the public.The affairs of the Revolution occasion'd the interruption.

Letter from Mr.Abel James, with Notes of my Life (received in Paris).

"MY DEAR AND HONORED FRIEND: I have often been desirous of writing to thee, but could not be reconciled to the thought that the lettermight fall into the hands of the British, lest some printer or busy-body should publish some part of the contents, and give our friend pain, and myself censure.